Baby, I dont know why. I went through your archives in your blog. I didnt go through all. I just went ill the one when you saw him finally after 4 days. I know right now you love me but im so selfish and blind to let all that bother me. I just dont wanna be another archive in your blog. It hurts to even think of it. I know i wont be cause you've always told me that you love only me. I believe you. i always will. But my spirits have been so low, it it were a fuel tank it would be at empty. I know in just being dramatic but you wont love another right. I'm your last right baby love. We're each other's last.

I said i'll accept your past. And i did. Its just during this period of time, i'm so broken, i feel so lost and alone. I know you've been trying your hardest to cheer me up and i dont want to be sad anymore. Its just so hard to do . There are so many things that i'm thinking of doing to help me stop feeling this way. But i'm afrid all the things that i'm thinking off will only help you end up alone and me become nothin but a lasting memory. So i wont because i know our love is worth too much to throw away. But baby, after this post i dont know when my next one will be. Its been a few days since you left a message on my Facebook and i miss that. I'm being selfish again. FUCK! I need help. help me. Cause just like a boxer who's been through 12 rounds with Muhammad Ali, I'm basically knocked out. I dont know when i'll wake up. I hope the people and supporters in my corner will help me back to my feet. Cause i'm lying flat on my face and i have no energy left to get up before the ten count.

Help me princess. Help me please. I'm so devoid of spirit. I dont know what im doing here. You know what to do right. I'll just lie down, face down till you call alright

P.S. Help me please. I love you