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Monday, April 20, 2009 11:57 PM

Is it too late? have made 1 mistake too many...?

Today has been a bittersweet day. Sweet because i'm coming home back to the only person who has loved me unconditionally. The person who has given her heart totally to me but i'm afraid i have made the biggest mistake of my life. And i'm afraid i may have caused her to doubt my love for her. I love her with all my heart but this mistake, this error. I'm afraid i may lose her because of this and it is totally my fault.

She has made it perfectly clear what she feels and she's right. I'm wrong and that's plain too see. I have made too many mistakes and she has gone out of her way to forgive me all those times but i'm afraid she may never forgive me anymore. I have to pay for my mistakes. If she says i have to be alone on the day that she has painstakingly worked for, then i will do as she says. But that doesn't mean i'll ever stop trying to pay for my mistakes. I'm not prepared to live my life alone not least when fate has given me the perfect person for me. It may seem that i am taking her for granted but that will never happen. I love her too much for that too happen. I'll always love her and that will never change. I know she loves me too but i'm afraid she may not be able to forgive me again.

I do not want to lose the only person whom have only ever loved. I do not want to let what we have go. I want to marry her and that's what i ever want to do. I promised that all her sacrifices will not go down in vain and i still intend to keep my promise. It may seem far from that right now but i will keep my promise and marry her.

Baby, i will still turn up to your house on the weekend. I will never stop trying but if you say that i'll be alone on my birthday, i'll accept that. But i won't ever give up. If you tell me that you're gonna go out then i'll follow you and make up for my mistakes. I'll only stop if you tell me you don't want me in your life anymore. I know you still love me and i'll fight for your love. The day i stop is the day when you turn around and tell me that you have no more love for me.

I LOVE YOU NOR AISYAH. I ALWAYS WILL. I KNOW IM ASKING TOO MUCH BY ASKING YOU TO FORGIVE ME AGAIN.

BUT I LOVE YOU AND I EVER ONLY WANT TO BE WITH YOU AND NO ONE ELSE.

I want to marry you and have a family. That dream will always be around. You will be the last woman i'll love and thats the truth. If you think my mistake is one too many and too big, i shall live the rest of my life alone cause i can only ever love you.

I LOVE YOU.

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